Words on Wednesday … Stuck in an Elevator and Driver Licenses

14 Oct

Remember when you got your driver’s license for the first time? Remember that? You walked out of the DMV like Rocky Balboa feeling like I GOT thisssssssssssssssssss!

Granted I didn’t get mine until I got out of college, but I was living with a driving permit for years. Not because I didn’t want to take the test, but I actually didn’t need a car in school as the subway was the way to do, and walking. So I didn’t have a need for one really. But once I got out into the real world and started working, that license was imperative. Not just for work but for the independence that came with it. The driver’s license was much more than permission to get behind the wheel.

Now, driving doesn’t feel like an accomplishment at all, just an extension of the everyday. Parallel parking in a tight spot while random strangers are watching you from their porch? Now THAT still puts an extra spring in my step! I strut like George Jefferson when I pull that off.

But thinking about my license and traveling back in time, that was an epic day. One I looked forward to most definitely. And so during my little time traveling escapade I realized that I’ve been missing the “looking forward to” aspect.

There are little things here and there to be grateful for, can’t deny that. Parallel parking as I mentioned, rocks. Under current circumstances, gratitude makes this adventure we’re all going through better. But feeling the feels, like that driver’s license vibe … that’s missing. The assuredness that you’ve planned or prepared for something and it’s about to go down.

That’s been missing a long time.

I was reminded of that this week, though, as I couldn’t go to any of my kids’ soccer, hockey, or baseball games seeing how there was no season. Looking forward to seeing them play, their hard work and skills learned during the week tested out there, the smiles on their faces when things went right and the sighs when improvement was still needed. Or the feel of the big league stadium when you’re at the ballpark and it’s playoffs, the cheer of the collective crowd. I miss that. I don’t miss the damn beach balls that always seem to bounce in your line of vision when someone has an epic play at home plate.

The “looking forward to,” part was missing and it feels like I’ve been stuck in an elevator between the 7th and 8th floors telling everyone else stuck in there with me, ‘well when I get out, what I’m going to do is this …’ ‘

We’re all making plans, we’re all plotting out what’s gonna happen first. I mean I know Disneyland will probably be packed. No doubt.

But this elevator sucks and those doors are going to be closed for a long time. So I have to find moments until the doors open, even if they’re not driver-license worthy, they still give me something to look forward to beyond the everyday routine.

The race, for instance.

Most of the time my obstacle races and runs present both physical and mental challenges that make me laugh and feel good. Give me those Gatorade worthy moments. But this year it’s done with a virtual twist. I did my dad’s race that way and even though it wasn’t the same it did give me the looking-forward-to-it vibe. I had purpose. I felt that pitter-pat. So when a friend of mine sent me a link to a virtual race for our old school, I thought cool shirt. I’m in. I want a little something different.

It broke up the regular of this irregularity. So I had something to look forward to, something out of the ordinary. A little excitement bubbled as I joined others feeling the same way, participating, being part of a community even if we weren’t at the finish line at the same time. It was good to do a little something different, to reach a goal and to reach it with my kid. It was a good break from the stuck elevator.


And so my life remains in chunks, and even though I’ve been grateful for the wake up in the morning without Coronavirus chunk, I wish, like everyone else, that there were more driver’s license moments.

Buen camino my friends …




7 Responses to “Words on Wednesday … Stuck in an Elevator and Driver Licenses”

  1. Sorryless October 15, 2020 at 12:00 AM #

    I do remember that feeling. Especially since I flunked my first time. The pressure was on for take two so when I passed there was a little extra excitement involved.

    Good to see you getting your run on.

    • The Guat October 18, 2020 at 10:39 PM #

      I was so thinking about that and how big it was. Like I had to borrow a car because my parents wouldn’t let me borrow theirs to take the test. Pops was actually working and moms was like Nope! So when I got it the picture captured how I felt. I still keep it in my wallet to look at it when I’m feeling not myself and or sad and it feels good to look back

  2. beth October 15, 2020 at 1:57 AM #

    love this post

    • The Guat October 18, 2020 at 10:40 PM #

      Thanks so much! Glad you enjoyed it 🙂

  3. cravesadventure October 15, 2020 at 4:52 AM #

    Your post sure resonates with me and I am sure a whole lot of others too. I like the elevator analogy and truth! Since March I have been planning things to look forward to and they are pretty simple (pilates class, making dinner with mister, going for a morning beach walk, etc.). It keeps me moving forward and staying as positive as possible too. Hopefully the elevator doors will open fully soon and for now it is planning for those things that we are looking forward to. Take Care and Be Safe 🙂

  4. The Guat October 18, 2020 at 10:45 PM #

    I’m so glad it reached you and struck a chord 🙂 I totally felt and still feel the elevator moment. I was like that’s where I’m stuck at right now. And we SOOO miss the beach! That was our place every weekend in the summer! But we were only able to go 3 times this year. And we left fairly soon. But I was glad the virtual race gave me a little something 🙂 thanks for hanging out and reading! Stay safe!!

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