Those butterflies I feel in my heart, it’s the nervousness and anxiety of starting something new. It’s about the fear of failing, the what-the-hell-happens-if-this-is-sucks feeling, the what if this never gets made feeling? It’s part of the dreamer’s disease. Side effects when you’re chasing stars and gravity’s got a hold on you.
Even in a pandemic these feelings still exist.
But because of the very pandemic, these feelings won’t stop me. They’ll make events and stepping stones a lot more challenging, but not impossible. It’s the vision you gotta keep, the vision and your motivation.
Projects become something to look forward to for everyone, whether it’s planting a garden, learning a new instrument, crocheting a blanket, starting a weight-loss program, a 30-Day Challenge, or writing a new story. Getting jazzed up about it is the first step and I’ve been on fire for a bit, now I get on with the research and storytelling.
I set the goal and I’ve been inching my way, step by step on the broken yellow-brick road. I’m still a ways away, but I do something every day to contribute to the success of this project. Whether I’m researching content online, writing notes, writing story, editing as I go along, getting pictures and notes to help me stay motivated. Every hour helps. Every day. Carve out an appointment with myself to get it done. I’m still worried about not knowing certain technical aspects for the story, but research continues. I’ve even added a side hustle to help me financially. I’m trying to remember, it’s just a way of making it happen.
And just when I hit a bump of discouraging news this week, I thought man, this is gonna suck, don’t know if I got it. Will I get it? I heard the tunes that got me out of some jams. Sitting in my car wondering … and the tunes come out. I hear the funk, the guitar, and those lyrics jumpstart something in me, the dancing begins and the boost in my confidence. They introduce a different mindset. A positive one. Sitting on the couch thinking, and a feel good song from my childhood occurs to me and it makes me strut, that George Jefferson confidence strut. Makes me feel like I got this! I’m on the flip side. It’s possible. Even if it’s just today, today is the day I need confidence. I’ll deal with tomorrow, tomorrow.
And here I am, continuing that train of thought sending the tunes out in the universe hoping it encourages someone else out there to strut their stuff.
The Jeffersons Theme Song — Moving on Up
Oye — Sonora Margarita
Queen — Don’t Stop Me Now
Juanes — A Dios le Pido
U2 — Beautiful Day
Buen Camino my friends …
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The Wish Factor 
onward! great post and music
Love that Queen song. Yes, you’re right about the projects being important. I’m teaching hubby to play the piano and he’s doing so well. I’m very proud of him. 👯♀️
That’s great! Playing piano is an epic adventure. You have to post about the class and what his first song is gonna be 🙂 glad to hear you’re keeping busy 🙂
He’s already on his second book and has quite a repertoire of songs. 😅
Your courage , hope and determination is an inspiration. My anxiety has been on the high mostly since end of Feb pandemic but when I look at my blessings like job, health, friends and family, I feel less anxious & scared, then there’s times at the beach which really helps. Take care.
Thanks so much. Feeling anxious is definitely what a lot of people are feeling. But it’s true when you stop and look at your blessings it definitely helps alleviate some feelings. And the Beach and Great Outdoors always helps. Sending you good vibes this weekend
Happy Weekend