I made an appointment with myself this morning.
I mean, I make doctor’s appointments, parent-teacher conferences, coach’s meetings, practice sessions, camping arrangements. That was all prior to Covid-19. Now I make virtual meetings, virtual campouts, virtual summer camps, virtual book club, virtual everything. I make the everything appointments.
Everything but myself.
Haven’t done too many of those when we’re all supposed to be hunkered down. There’s little room here.
But needed a moment to think.
So I found some space. Something big was happening and I needed to clear my head. I needed a moment with myself to do something without the kids. So I woke up just at the same time the sun did, laced up my Saucony running shoes for the last time as a 44-year old.
I try to make time stop, slow it down on the last day. I try to get just one moment that day, do something fun, something Zen, something that makes me laugh, something that makes me feel good, like waking-up-early-to-watch-Saturday-morning-cartoons-when-I-was-a-kid good. Something with that vibe. Gives me perspective on the day before I turn one year older. I like to pause.
Early is the way to go when you’re trying to avoid people. Not too many feel the need to rise on up on Saturday morning. Not even myself. But today I did. And it was a good thing.
After I sprinted the last 200 yards with my heart pounding, trying to catch my breath, I felt it. I crossed my imaginary finish line marked by the parking sign and the sweat falling underneath my Cal Bears cap.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. And there it was, between the heartbeats. Brief. But it was there for me, a moment to be present, a moment of gratitude, a moment of pause. I enjoyed looking up at the sky and feeling the sun. 44 was leaving. But the mixed tape that went with it was worth it.
I don’t know what year 45 around the sun looks like, I know it will include Ben & Jerry’s that’s for sure. I’m celebrating the ending of year 44 with pint. But if year 45 is better than year 44, then I’m doing a good job. Moment by moment. Step by step.
Katrina and the Waves — Walking on Sunshine
La Sonora Dinamita — Se Me Perdio La Cadenita
UB40 — The Way You do The Things You Do
Los Tucanes de Tijuana — La Chona
Phil Collins — That’s All
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Buen Camino my friends!
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The Wish Factor 
Happy Birthday, Guat!!! I hope 45 rocks harder than Saturday Morning cartoons. 🎊 🎉
Thanks so much Susie! The day was what I made of it and I did the best with what I had. Not ringing it in as everyone should but still found a way to celebrate. The bonus … saw a pod of dolphins, like 12. It was cool.
Wow! They were a sign of good things to come. I wish I lived closer to celebrate!!!
Happy You Day, Cali. Belated as it may be.
A couple of these songs bring me RIGHT back to a time and place, I love it!
Glad you’re liking my jams I hear them during the week and they make it happen over here for me. They take me back to some of the best years and sometimes they just feel great, giving off the energy.
There is nothing like a certain song to bring you back to that time, in spirit. It’s a beautiful thing.