Having someone point out your flaws and make you feel pretty crappy on a day where love is supposed to be everywhere kind of sucked.
Mornings like that should be reserved for times when you have strength overflowing and your feel good-song constantly replays in your mind.
All this love was going around, everyone exchanging flowers, and balloons and chocolate and someone was pointing out that I yelled at my kids four times to listen and follow directions … It was pointed out to me that it wasn’t a good thing to be that kind of parent, or person.
You know, I know that sometimes my patience runs out and if my life would have turned out the way I imagined maybe there’d be less frustration when things went haywire. But it’s something I’m fully aware of … I’m mindful not to yell at my kids for no reason. I grew up with unecessary yelling and scolding, so I make it a point to not do that. I’m very aware of what that does to a kid. So I know I’m not angry all the time and I didn’t appreciate someone painting me that way.
People see you in a moment of frustration and they know you’re having a bad moment and they use it against you. They lay things out there and judge you when you’re drowning. And the thing is … They know you. They knoooooow you and yet they say something like that, something that just feels like a punch in the stomach.
It was pretty sucky, having that feeling all day.
But then I went to get my kids Valentine’s Day cards and I found something that made me smile. A valentine I could have gotten for myself, or just an everyday card. Something that my dad might have gotten for me, and I found the grace I needed to move on.
I laced up my shoes and I kept walking. One foot in front of the other.
Buen Camino my friends.
The Wish Factor 
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