The Dodger Blues on Dia de Los Muertos

3 Nov

Heartbreaking agony the kind that brings that pang-pang-paning in my chest that only a true fan can feel.

The Blues.

When every fiber of your being is crushed because you dreamed their same dream and wished for them to make it to the top of the mountain, you’ve been wishing for it ever since you watched them take it in 1988, but it looks like you’re gonna have to wait a little bit longer.

Just a little I tell myself.

But through championships and heartbreaks I’m still with My Boys in Blue and remain a fan … always.

A fan who takes at least 24-48 hours to recover from this, a fan who was celebrating Dia de Los Muertos yesterday and feeling the Blues of a dream gone wrong throughout the day.

But things looked better today, don’t know if it was because of Friday, but the feel-goods were trying to make a comeback. They didn’t quite pierce through, but the agony is gone yet disappointment remains. And there are all kinds of people with their what-if-scenarios blabbering about on social media as if they have MLB coaching skills and experience, but no one can really predict the outcome. You can HOPE, based on what you believe to be true, on past performances. But in baseball, as with other sports, there are all kinds of variables that affect the scoreboard. All you can do is believe and give it everything you got. Grit pulls you through when every other avenue seems to be failing. My boys fell short but they made for an epic World Series run.

And as their season was laid to rest on Nov 1st, the next day came about … the last day of festivities for Dia de Los Muertos and it seemed somewhat fitting, you know … The realization of the death of a dream to fall on the Day of the Dead. And so I made my way to the cemetery, wearing my Dad’s Dodgers cap and settling in for a long talk about our beloved team and the insane ups-and-downs of the series.

I talked about other things of course, how big the kids were getting, how he would have enjoyed my son’s hockey games, or playing catch with my daughter, or the pumpkin patch adventure. He would have smiled at the sound of their laughter and exhaled loudly during their play-with-me-you-never-ever-play-with-me exaggerated arguments between each other.

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The kids bringing their best …

We brought things that might have lifted his spirit after the Dodgers loss. Purple and green jars with the festive nature of this holiday, plants, flowers, surprises, and decorative vibes all in an effort to send him messages of love and reverence. Messages to let him know that we remember him and pray for him during his spiritual journey were something we sent his way and I hope he felt that.

Buen Camino my friends … Buen Camino

 

 

 

 

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6 Responses to “The Dodger Blues on Dia de Los Muertos”

  1. bgddyjim November 4, 2017 at 1:18 AM #

    I’m sorry for your loss. I was so profoundly happy that Justin Verlander will get his ring, though. Keep in mind, I’m in Michigan….

    • The Guat November 14, 2017 at 12:07 AM #

      Yeah JV had a good game, definitely a good trade for Houston.

  2. ksbeth November 4, 2017 at 3:13 AM #

    i’m a jv fan as well, being a michigander – sorry

    • The Guat November 14, 2017 at 12:09 AM #

      Yeah a lot of Michigan peeps seemed to be ecstatic and happy for him, which makes sense. He had a good game, definitely helped Astros with that acquisition. Glad you were able to celebrate that.

  3. Susan Swiderski November 4, 2017 at 1:48 PM #

    I feel your pain. I’m a huge Atlanta Falcons fan, and I don’t know if we’ll ever get over their massive fourth quarter Super Bowl implosion.

    • The Guat November 14, 2017 at 12:10 AM #

      Duuuuuuude you totally feel my fan pain. Mannnnnnnnn! Still hurts but I feel yeah. Sending you some good vibes.

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