I generally like to think of myself as a badass who flies her freak flag and lets her awesome whenever possible.
Skydiving doesn’t scare me.
Bungyjumping doesn’t worry me.
Hitting the dance floor, no problem.
Karaoke, don’t sing like Adele, but don’t care.
The one thing that does worry me? Concerns me? Brings some insecurity bubbling to the surface?
Opening night coming up in ten days.
Program for the play … no this is not me … it’s the star. of the play
Eight plays. One festival. People I know, people I don’t know. Words coming to life on stage. First time that’s happened since that girl scout talent show in elementary school.
I’m excited, but worried at the same time. The words are gone, now in the hands of the actors. How I said them in my head, the little idiosyncrasies I imagined, how I saw it playing out, that’s all gone. The words are on their own and I have to hope they were strong enough to carry my vision, and the lives of the characters I created. Don’t know if people will laugh, or remain unmoved. Don’t know what the other writers created. All I know is that I’m last on the lineup.
Not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
Won’t be sure of much until afterwards. In 11 days I’ll be all right, but for ten … Ten days insecurity will strike.
But I imagine that’s what all writers go through even if you’re confident in your work, even if you think it’s awesome … a little insecurity before the big day, before the book debut, before the movie comes out and before your play hits the stage, it happens, right? Insecurity hits us all while we’re waiting. Thank God for chocolate.
The Wish Factor 
Well, good luck. It will be alright on the night, as the saying goes. 🙂
Thanks so much! As you know … It turned out great!
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Visualize Day 11 as the success you want it to be. The performance was better than you had hoped. The actors all understood exactly what you wanted from them. The audience loved it. Close you eyes, take a deep breath, and then visualize this result.
First off I want to apologize for just seeing your comment. I have just checked something called the “pending” folder in the comments section and found all these comments from previous posts!! So sorry to have gotten back to you so late, but nevertheless I appreciate you reading and leaving a message even though I never saw it … until today. It was a great experience! I was glad to have done it. I did visualize lots of times and in the end things turned out great. Now I’m up for round II.
Congratulations, you are living the dream. You’ve written a play! How kewl is that! I’m impressed. Of course, you’re anxious, a little scared, beside yourself with nervousness. Take it all in. Life doesn’t get much better than that!
Thanks sooooooo much for the kind words. It IS awesome living this out and so glad people can relate. Thanks for the advice and for stopping by to read. 🙂 have a good one.
Spot on! Both about the insecurity and the chocolate. Welcome to the IWSG.
Rebecca at The Ninja Librarian
Thanks! It was an awesome journey to go through. Chocolate is so amazing during those times. Thanks for stopping and reading.