Thanks Cheryl … Now I Remember, I Just Haven’t Accessed Them Yet

13 Nov

It was like I had to do it.

I mean I could have done it tomorrow in light of day, just catching moments of time here and there, but I thought it was best to soak it in all at once and have a moment. A wow moment, a self-discovery moment I knew would take place because it had happened before. It had happened with other great books in the quiet of the night, other books that gave me moments of reflection, moments of change at just the right time.

So I wanted another one.

I had to do it. I had to find out what happened in the end, I mean I know what happened, she got to the bridge. But what really happened, how did it feel? What did it change? Because even though I hadn’t walked, run, or hiked those hundreds of miles on The Pacific Crest Trail, I had changed with her.

37 pages.

That’s all I had left after chipping away for months on Cheryl Strayed’s novel, Wild. 37 pages. Didn’t seem like much, just a thin sliver, but for a slow reader like myself that seemed like a chunk and in the end, a chunk is what it was because so much had happened in those 37 pages.

And I needed to tell someone, tell my own personal community book club that no one knew they were a part of until the read the first sentence of this post.

I needed to share.

Not that anyone would read it right away, or that anyone would read it in its entirety but I felt like this has become my own little support group, filled with people I’ve never met, but at the same time filled with people who also know parts of me. Well … I did meet Susie. Bonus.

But this community of writers, and artists had become a place where running to share something awesome that happened to you because you know that somewhere out there something just as awesome has happened to someone in return and they can relate to you. Whether they’re in California, England, Boston, or Australia. Someone relates.

So I found myself at 11:59 p.m. sitting there having a moment. I had just been part of Strayed’s journey, she brought me along the her 1,100+ mile Pacific Crest Trail adventure describing the forests, mountains, skylines, lakes, trees, wildlife, and moonlit nights that transformed her.

For those of you who haven’t read it and want to, this might be the place to stop…for the rest of you…

This was definitely the story of someone who seemingly had everything health, family, college, and the love of a good man–a good husband. But that all went to crap after the heartbreaking death of her mother. Affairs, betrayal, divorce, heroine, all these bad choices found this girl at the bottom and so far away from her center she had no idea where her internal compass had gone, and she had no idea how to get back until she discovered a simple guidebook to Pacific Coast Trail while waiting in line … it was this guidebook that sparked the idea that eventually changed her life. It reminded of the movie I had seen awhile back, the one that had made such an impact, The Way, starring Martin Sheen.

They were both physical journeys that impacted the emotional levels of each character, it changed their spirit and helped them find their center. It helped both of them come to terms with the things that happened in their life.

And even though the journey had great discoveries it also had exasperating moments, like when Strayed accidentally dropped one of her hiking boots over a cliff and all she could do was hug the other one really tight, the only other hiking boot she had left, before chucking it over in utter frustration. I found myself thinking … dude that would have totally happened to me.

But at the end the losing the boot didn’t seem to matter much, it was part of what was supposed to happen in order to get her to that spot. At the end when she reached the Bridge of Gods and eventually found herself sitting on that white bench, eating the ice cream and having her moment, feeling like she knew certain things in her life would come to pass, even though she hadn’t accessed them yet, she knew they would come, that she would be all right. She knew and she was full of gratitude.

At that point, I remembered Ayers Rock in Australia. I remembered having my own mini adventure in Uluru. I remembered the roundabout walk around Uluru, the 10K, the feeling of peace as I touched to the magical sandstone, the feeling of awareness, the presence, the stories told by my aboriginal guide, the quiet I felt as I sat on the wooden bench when it was over. The gratitude in knowing the trip had changed my life and the knowledge that I’d be all right no matter what was waiting for me when I got back.

Strayed took me back to a moment that had slipped my mind, a moment after my own journey that I needed to remember. Strayed reminded me or parts that are yet to come … they’re there … I just haven’t accessed them yet.

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4 Responses to “Thanks Cheryl … Now I Remember, I Just Haven’t Accessed Them Yet”

  1. anotherday2paradise November 15, 2015 at 12:07 PM #

    Beautiful post, TG. 🙂

    • The Guat November 15, 2015 at 5:55 PM #

      Thanks, so appreciate you saying that as I totally had a moment there, I followed it up with the movie the next day, but as always the book was better, although Reese Witherspoon did a great job in that role. 🙂

  2. cravesadventure November 16, 2015 at 8:17 AM #

    I watched the movie for the 2nd time yesterday afternoon.

    The movie brings back my memories of hiking through those areas over the 11 years I spent living Out West among the Sierras. Yosemite stole a piece of my heart.

    It reminds me of my journey Out West too. 5 months apart from my husband in our 1st year of marriage. Building a house, building a life. The travels, adventures and explorations through NV, CA, AZ, OR, ID, MT, WY, HI, WA. The ups and downs, the highs and lows, the good times and the not so good times, etc.

    Here’s to Journeying Along and Creating Our Stories as well as Discovering Our Strong!!!

    Happy Week – Enjoy 🙂

    • The Guat December 10, 2015 at 1:20 PM #

      Duuuuuude journeying and discovering how strong we are is so amazing! I think that’s why I like to read about other people’s journey so much. The Alchemist is my favorite journey of all time, though. That one started it all. 🙂 Dude and you hitting the West and all those states, I would totally read that journey. Yosemite! Dude. AWESOME. I need to take the kids there. I bet Oregon was pretty cool too, I have yet to go, but I hear it’s an Outdoor person dream, and Hawaii, well that’s a beach lover’s dream…definitely have to go back there.

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