November’s Epic Failure is December’s Woo-Hoo Moment of the Year

30 Dec

I high-fived myself in the dark and then had a Will-Smith-Pursuit-of-Happiness moment … the one in the end … where he claps for himself in the middle of a crowd, and it’s that hard clap, the I-got-emotion-behind-this-clap clap and he does this because he finally did it. He reached his goal.

Yeah.

I had me one of those in the dark last night at about one-something in the morning. The quiet of the night felt good. I was awake. Awake with happiness, or that could have been the last hour of my 5-hour energy drink kicking in.

Either way I was feeling pretty good about the whole thing, because I had failed so miserably before.

50,000 words.

Woo-Hoo!

Woo-Hoo!

 

I had made it.

I finished my book.

Last month was the epic National Novel Writing Month adventure where writers from all over the States and the world sit down and write their guts out in an effort to reach 50,000 words in 30 days. I, like every other writer, contemplated this and then thought maybe … maybe.

Come November 7th I saw a tweet from a buddy of mine, Susie Lindau, who had posted her word count and then something funny about the whole situation. When I logged in and left her an encouraging comment she responded with a simple, “Are you doing it too?” And I thought, well holy crap, am I?

I had thought of just participating in my own way, not really signing up, but just making an effort to write everyday, as I had fallen off the wagon. But with Susie’s question, I thought yeah … yeah I am why not. I had set a goal earlier this year to finish my book and was no where near finished, and this NanoWrimo thing would definitely push me through.

No. It didn’t push me.

It didn’t.

It drove me into a crash and burn of failure.

And not just any failure … a writer’s failure.

With two kids under the age of seven and all of the duties and adventures that come from that I just didn’t make it. I didn’t have enough time, or energy. But then I thought there are people out there with full time jobs and three kids and they probably did it so it wasn’t about excuses it was just failure.

But I wasn’t going to let that stop me. After a week of stuffing myself with chocolate and swimming in the sad writer’s state of mind, I picked myself up, bought a Costco-sized case of 5-Hour energy drinks and decided I was gonna write my ass off until it was done. I got this! I told myself.

So while it took Nano Champions 30 days or less to cross the finish line … it took me about 60. And I was all right with that.

November’s epic failure turned into December’s Woo-Hoo moment of the year.

I felt like Rocky Balboa after he made it to the top and climbed his last step … but I know getting it published is a whole other journey, but I am just glad that I finally conquered this step.

Ecstatic.

It was surreal. Exciting. Gratifying. But still surreal.

It felt good to cross the finish line right before the New Year. I felt that all those sleepless nights fueled by 5-Hour Energy and those disastrous, painful mornings that nearly killed me because it required me to not only wake up, but actually function were worth it.

They were worth it.

50,000 words worth it.

Success feels good, and I celebrated … with chocolate of course.

 

 

 

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15 Responses to “November’s Epic Failure is December’s Woo-Hoo Moment of the Year”

  1. Apple Pie & Napalm December 30, 2014 at 11:14 PM #

    I am so excited for you, that is awesome! One of my resolutions is to gain some writing discipline. I so admire your commitment to see it through. You go, girl! Jack Bauer would be proud, too.

    • The Guat December 31, 2014 at 8:56 AM #

      Duuuuuude it was a Jack Bauerian effort for me to pull that off. Dude in retrospect I should have added that detail in my post. 🙂 and thanks! I guess he would have been proud. But I’m also grateful for the support from buddies like you, your cyber high fives are awesome! Hope you have a good New Year!

  2. bgddyjim December 31, 2014 at 2:37 AM #

    Congratulations!

    • The Guat December 31, 2014 at 8:57 AM #

      Thank so much! Always appreciate a pat on the back. 🙂

  3. anotherday2paradise December 31, 2014 at 1:00 PM #

    Wow! Congratulations to you, TG. 50,000words in 60 days sounds really awesome to me. When do we get to read it?

    • The Guat January 16, 2015 at 12:57 AM #

      Thanks! It was such an awesome feeling. I took a little two-week break and now I’m on the editing cycle, hoping you guys will be able to read it by September when school starts…it’s a dark comedy that takes place at a school.

  4. sweetpea2love December 31, 2014 at 1:23 PM #

    Oh my how wonderful for you.. I know how good it feels to finish what you’ve started. Congrats for attaining your goals, and best of luck in 2015 when you travel down that road searching out a publisher. Keep the faith in your journey no matter how long it may take.

    Happy New Year !
    Take care and happy blogging to ya… 🙂

    • The Guat January 16, 2015 at 1:00 AM #

      Thanks so much! I was doing cartwheels. That whole publishing adventure is the next step after editing, but I’m keeping it positive. Thanks for your support and kind words. I REALLY appreciate it! Have a great year yourself!

  5. brickhousechick December 31, 2014 at 4:15 PM #

    Holy Guatamole!!! This is amazing and exciting news!!! I am celebrating right now as I write this – I couldn’t be happier for you!!! YAHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are one amazing Mama and writer. Celebrate with all the chocolate you want, you have obviously earned it.

    Here’s to continued success in 2015! Feliz Ano Nuevo, amiga!! 🙂

    • The Guat December 31, 2014 at 5:28 PM #

      Azuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucar! That’s what I’m feeling baby! And thanks so much for the love! Getting high fives and support from people who have believed in me from the start is always a great feeling. Thank you chica! It is definitely going to be a good year, it was in 2014 (better than 2013 anyway and that’s all I ever ask…an improvement from the year before) 🙂 Feliz Ano!

  6. susielindau December 31, 2014 at 11:14 PM #

    CONGRATULATIONS! I can’t imagine that I would get anything done if my kids were still at home. I would be way too distracted. AMAZING!!! YOU DID IT! WOOHOO!

    • The Guat January 16, 2015 at 1:03 AM #

      Thanks Susie! You were an inspiration to me! Totally pushing me through. I really appreciate all the support. Sorry it took me this long to get back to you, I’ve been searching for MORE COWBELL! 🙂 Thanks again Wild Rider.

      • susielindau January 16, 2015 at 6:01 AM #

        It sounds like you’ve had your hands full.

  7. lameadventures January 1, 2015 at 12:27 PM #

    Hey Guat, that’s great that you achieved your goal. Congratulations! Now get some sleep before you take on editing and rewriting.

    • The Guat January 16, 2015 at 1:08 AM #

      Thanks V! I really appreciate all the encouragement you’ve given me. I took a couple of weeks off just to detoxify my body of the 5-hour energy drink that was taken over my body. Now I’m on the editing and revising adventure. But I just wanted to thank you for all your support during this process, you always put out little comments letting me know I could do this and I really appreciate it…even if it took me a while to get back to you. Thanks. Hope you have a great weekend!

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